THE BAITCH
The name's AMANDA.
我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .
想要的 : Materialistic .
我最真的爱 : BeStIe!
我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x
'Cause im from Venus
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
sigh.. i don't want to study. so boring. but i know it's not right for not me to study. exam coming le, my subjects SUCKS like HELL. and my poa and chem sure fail de. maybe geog and social studies too. im so fuckiing hell dead during exam lOr. sian arhx..
FUCK EXAM,,
FUcK EVERYTHING..
FUCK FUCKING FAR FROM ME..
I ONLY WANT MY DEAR.
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, September 25, 2006
tOday v dUlan..
muhh DAD SMACK MY HEAD FOR NOTHONG!!
DAMN HIM.. FUCKEr..
andd he fuckiing hell diin askk muhh permiission and oPen HUBBIIEY GIVE ME THE CHOCOLATE!!
FUCK..!!
its fuckiing hell miine..!!
whO gave hiim the permiision to oPen MY PROPERTY..
and the bOx oF chOcolaTe iish HUBBIIEY brOught it in Genting de..!!
HE FUCKING HELL TOLD ME nOt tO tOUcH hiis thiings..
yet HE TOUCH MINE!!
WART THE FUCK
and he open dde bOx Obb chOcOlate till v ugly lO!!
FUCK sIa~
SMACK MY HEAD NORT ENOFF STILL WANT OPEN MY THING!!!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, September 24, 2006
nOw ii watchiing the show office have ghOst shOw..
sii beii scary...
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, September 21, 2006
DAMN SHAG..
cry on erzi back just now.. thanks erzi for always be at my side when i feeling down.. i appreciate it. thx for cheering me up , just want to let u know that not that i don't want to smile its just that , i can't do it!! don worry ii will be fine..
thx for cheering me up , but the only really can cheer me up is him.. sigh..
whipped__
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
! @ # $ % ^ & * !@ # $ % ^ & * !%^*!@#$% ^&*!@#$%^&* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK SPIDER TODAY DARN SIAN!!! aRGGHh!!!!
later awhile more im meeting up with my dear girls to study and lyn will be bringing her mp3 so i can put song in my lappy ^^ .. today DAMN SIAN~
after that at 7 i will be going for my baking lesson at GPCC .. X)
1st lesson leiihx.. than its like everyone was teasing me that i will bake the cake till CHAO TA.. lOlx.. scarly i really bake till chao ta hOw?? hahas..
aiya , sure won't the .. i who leiihx?? IM FAMOUS AMANDA.. ii sure won't make till chao ta wan de hor.. don't kan suay suay me hOr.. im a clever xiiaogongzhu hOr.. ^^..
then maybe after lesson see they at where go find them again after that then mayb go home barrhx.. ^^
tOday POA test v difficult lOr!!
Fuck.. O GOD SLAP ME AWAKE!!!
sure flunk this test. sigh..
after school went to have lunch with edwin kor they all with boonee.. ii keep calling javer[--->dunno how to selpl?? lOlx] bird. lOlx.. must have irritated him alot.. ^^
GOD .. can you give me a time machine??
[:+_falling aparts*
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
2nd post today le. just reach back home not to long ago from studying.
there was 8 of us studying together in mac , quite fun , but i can't fully concentrate copying xiaosi poa worksheet. then shi min come find us then we went to the exercise station slack awhile then serene came.
sigh. i see nuerr quarrel with burger v xin ku , will let me think of me and bear quarreling too. sigh. i don understand why couples quarrel over small little things and don't want to tell each other how they feel and led to a misunderstanding.
haiish. how much i want to call you dear again , but i know i can't do it anymore le. bearbear , you must takeaiire of yourself. don fall sick , if your sick , i will feel sick too. drink more water and if your condition worsen please please see a doctor ok.. and anything please call me.
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
today is normal , sort of boring..
sigh , life made it worst for me without him. how much i miss the time we spent together. sigh..
last night went to mac and study with xiao si , gin hong , edwin kor , peng hwee. i spent about a hour plus to finish my poa homework. poa damn sucks lor. FucK spider POA. i from mid of term 2 can't catch up with poa le. sigh..
after finishing my poa homework i teach peng hwee maths . surprising that i was actually teaching the chapter on triangle in a circle , which my maths teacher haven't started with this chapter. i'm so darn proud that i can do the qns. thanks to bear , he taught me on this chapter . ^^.. next i teach edwin kor MaThs again *faint* ..
edwin kor taking e-maths still can ask me with e-maths prob. i just take up e-maths lehx. but !! i still can slove lehx. hahas.. then edwin kor kanna suan by xiaosi they all. wakekekex...
later go study again le.
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, September 17, 2006
sigh .. everything seems to be changing. the way i talk to him last night is so different, i have hurt him so deep. sigh , why did i give him attitude in the 1st place?!?! WHY!!! i don't knOw what he's thinking nOw, he may be still fuming with anger with my fucking attitude or very hurt by what i done to him?? i really don't know.
i'm not a good girlfriend.
i'm such a failure as his stead. he's someone so wonderful, yet i'm not. he deserve's someone better, but i made his life worse. i feel that i'm a burden in his life. i don't want to lose him badly . i really don't . i'm afraid one day, if he really have a girlfriend . . .
all my trouble in my heart are pilling up . but there's no one to help me . i can't comfront him , because i'm his burden. i can only express myself by bloging yet i can't express it to other's even him. i don't know why? maybe i don't have the guts to tell him? i really don't know.
is it true i'm not treasuring him? he's such a good guy . i'm already very lucky to have met him . yet , i messed things up... why did i have to behave in this way ? sigh . i'm really afraid of losing him , but i still have to let him go . he had enough of me . now , all my worries are kept in my broken heart . i wanted him to be at my side now . but it totally impossible . sigh. what type of girlfriend am i..?
i just want him to have all his attention to me . but not in maple or anyone . can't i have more attention ? i'm his girlfriend!! i'm in a mess . . my heart is brokening . . my head is aching . i'm lost .. will he be there for me ?? help me my angel!!
everything's over..
all i want him to know is : bear , i'm sorry for all i have done . all my attitude and behaviour. i know i kept saying sorry but still keep repeating my mistake time and time again . i'm just sorry for not learning the right way to cherish you . not showing you how i love you in the right way.. sigh.. i just wanted more attention from you. wanted you to bring me out and have fun rather then staying in your house all day long. i wanted to be like normal couples like going out together, having fun together. i wanted you to bring me to school while your in your holiday fetch me home from school. but i felt as though maple is your everything. i love you but i didn't show you my love. i just want to hold your hand and be with you through out my life. sigh. . i love you.. don make 040304 a memoriies. i just want you and only you.. sigh..
that day in your hp i saw you have save weiling num in your recent calls. she have call you a few weeks ago. but you are still saving her num. that day really makes me no mood. i don't know whether you still like her or what. i'm just v upset and have attituded u that day.
i'm so jealous of you studying with your fren outside. but you just refuse to study with me outside. i feel so upset. maybe you just want to stay at home and play your maple barrhx..
everything is over.
i'm trying my best to take it calmly but i can't.
i still love him so much.
but i respect his decision.
so now , please don't tell me about love.
AMANDAstaySTRONG
everything is over.
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, September 03, 2006
sO warrt ibb iim bloody hell faT??
iiszt wrOng tO be fat??
u tiink ii liike 2 be fat iiszt??i
i alsO wann muhhself tO be sLiim..
iim already cuttiing dOwn muhh weight lerrhx lO..
wrOng tO nOrrt tO eat harr??
u tiink ii dOnwan eat??
lOLx..
cOsh of yOu keep sayiing ii v fat ii bOoDly hell skip meal..
everytiime say ii fat,,
you tiink ii happy arrh??
iits sO humiilatiing lOr..
onliiey u dOn feel dat way..
yOu cant accept ii fat dan dOn c miie lA,,
dOn tOuch miie,, dOn hug miie..!! OR
yOU wan dOn be tOgetherr??
sO you will nOrrt c a fat ugly biitch...
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Friday, September 01, 2006
woohoo.. finelly holiday start lerrhx..
I LIKE FIND GUY SO WART..
LIKE U EVER CARE ABOUT MIE LIIDAT..
II LIIKE ACT LORRHX..
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying