THE BAITCH
The name's AMANDA.
我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .
想要的 : Materialistic .
我最真的爱 : BeStIe!
我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
yesterday dance was a success ,
but there's some idiotic people from other schools band keep laughing .
they have a low EQ esteem .
it makes my heart boils to hear and see them laughing .
and i feel so pissed off .
FUCK SPIDER LARHX.
FUCK THEIR BACKSIDE ARHX ,
PUA CHEE BYE ,
I GIVE YOU TWO BIG TIGHT SLAP ON YOUR SHITTY FACE ARHX .
SHIT FACE GIRLS ,
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS ART THEN GET OUT OF THE CONCERT HALL .
ALL OF U HAVE FUCK FACE .
KNN YOU ALL LAUGH LAUGH LUAGH ,
YOU THINK YOU SO LI HAI COME DANCE LA ,
CHEE BYE ..
SEE ALL YOUR FACE LIKE KANNA SHIT BEFORE NIA .
FUCKING BLOODY HELL GIRLS .
DAMN YOU LA .. FUCKERS.
FUCKING HELL GO DIE CAN ?
WEAR UNTIL SO ' PRETTY ' ,
LAUGH UNTIL KANNASAI ,
MIGHT AS WELL GO FUCK SPIDER .
TMD , YOU THINK THE DANCE VERY FUNNY ISZT ?
NO BRAIN FUCKERS .
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO APRRECIATE ARTS ,
STILL CAN BE IN A BAND ?
OMG ,
THEN ALL OF YOU SURE XIA SUAY YOUR SCHOOL LIAO .
LOW ESTEEM FUCKERS ,
DAMN FUCKING BITHES ,
YOU NA BEI CHEE BYE LA ,
LAUGH UNTIL LIKE MONSTER ,
SURE NO BOYFRIEND LA .
YOU ALL SURE HAVE A FUCKING LOUD MOUTH NIA .
YOUR MOUTH LOOKS LIKE A CLOWN MOUTH .
YOUR BRAIN IS SMALLER THEN A PEA .
YOUR BEHAVIOUR IS LIKE A MAD MONKEY .
YOU ALL ONLY XIA SUAY YOURSELF LOR ,
NBCCB .
SEE ALL YOUR FUCKING SHIT FACE MAKES ME WANNA PUKE ON YOU .
FUCK SPIDER LA ,
KNNACCB , MAMA PUNDEH .
IF I CAN I SURE CHOP YOU ARHX .
this is only to vent my anger la .
hahas . they really v chee bye .
anyway ,
im very happy that hubbiiey and ah tom daddy came to watch my performance .
but ,
dissapointed that my parents can't make it .
then after the concert ended ,
meet up with hubbiiey ,
and julia with jin wei ,
and went home together .
hubbiiey and me reach jp le go buy long john da bao to his house eat .
then i at his house bathe .
after that watch tv awhile then went home le .
during the rehersal ,
at the stage there's a lot of wood chips .
the wood chip poking into my skin ,
then its very difficult to get them out .
my leg is the worst ,
there's still some wood chips under my leg skin .
damn painful .
but , its still worth la .
write till here ba .
goodbye BaOb3ii bloggy .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, November 27, 2006
T.R.A.E.H Y.M
maybe things have change ,
people around me seems to be different and ever changing .
i wish somehow my washing machine could brainwash me . =]
i started looking at things from a different perspective.
maybe in that way life would be better.
somehow i feel.see.hear.belive many more things than others don't.
it just started all over again replaying in my mind,
i tried my best to fight back the tears
but it always win .
it just kept coming back ,
but it always win .
REPLAY > ?
i tried keeping myself busy ,
but it doesnt seem to help
me of forgeting you .
my life have been a mask ,
a facade mask that i put on each day to hide myself ,
hide my feelings .
i have lost apart of me .
it's empty and hollow inside .
i have been craving for something that seem so far away
i just wanna lie on the grass
and forget all reality.everything
or just need someone to murder me
somehow my bubble has burst.
and all im left with is tears.
maybe its just not meant to be.
no matter how hard we've tried.
i don't feel like hanging on to our relationship anymore .
no point drowning in sorrows .
listen to me will you ?
call me will you ?
don't neglact me will you ?
tell me about your life will you ?
don't throw me alone will you ?
humans are strange sometimes.
our hearts never did listen.
and we dont listen to our hearts.
and we ended up hurting each other .
somehow i wish we could be like before.
maybe we worry abit too much
if we did continue how would it be?
maybe the cut would be deeper.
drowning in tears is never right.
will u smile if we see each other?
but
if we were not to be together ?
what would it be like ?
will we still talk to each other ?
will we still care for each other ?
or will we just remain slient and
move on with our own life .
i wanna forget about the world ,
and all the sorrows it brings to me .
i wanna be left alone to scream like nobody business .
i craves nothing but your care and concern and everything .
i dislike being neglact .
sometimes ,
i wonder ,
am i holding something that have no outcome ?
i will , i could ,
to tear a hole , in myself
to understand more about me .
my sky is turning grey ,
the sun is dosen't seems to shine .
my rainbow in my heart seems to be fading away .
there seems to be no tomorrw .
apart of my heart seems shattered.like glass.
bits here and there.
some lost , some can never be found .
i'm sorry for the cause for it all .
hope you are happier this way .
wish me luck for my performance tomorrow ,
i will do my best .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, November 26, 2006
my neoprints pic with my cousins the other time .
im very lazy to blog today ,
shall blog other day barrhx .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, November 23, 2006
today , i will be blogging about stupid online-games .
D . O . T . A = Defense Of The Ancients
D - Damage
O - Of
T - The
A - ' Abandon '
S . R . O . G = SilkRoad Online-Game
S - Stupid / Super
R - Rubbish
O - Online
G - Game
M . S . O . G = Maple Story Online-Game
M - Mega
S - Stupid
O - Online
G - Game
G . B . O . G = GunBound Online-Game
G - Going
B - Brainless
O - Online
G - Garbage
THE PROS =]
- it entertains you when you are bored
- build good relationship between friends
- know more online friends
THE CONS =[
- bad for health
- addiction to game leads to lack of sleep
- bad for eyesight
- waste of time
- play too much leads to quarreling with family / girlfriend [ neglact ]
- noisy
- teaches people werid languages [ eg. 'sk' ]
- losing game can make people lose temper
CONCLUSION
Online game is bad . XP
Ban DOTA !
STOP PLAYING .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
just reach home and quarrel with him !
sickening !!
IS ONLINE GAME MORE IMPORTANT THEN YOUR GIRFRIEND ?
o well , change my blog song again ,
cause X'max coming le marrhx .
this is my favourite X'max song ^^ .
every year , my dad will play this song .
hahas .
today , we dance until so tired lor .
from 8.3oam dance until 5pm leiihx .
then reach home , call baby after that call erziiey [ Yi Tan ] ask him meet where .
cause returning jacket to him marrhx .
after that wait for erziiey call me to go down 242 bus-stop meet him .
i almost fall asleep but lucky he called before i fall asleep .
then quickly change into new clothes then go down meet him .
hahas . then meet him le , go home bathe ,
then go down meet li juan and michelle and gin hong mei .
not the sec 2 michelle , is ' michelle ' li juan cousin . lols .
she's DAMN CUTE .
only k2 , p1 next year .
li juan today bring her to our dance practise . hahas .
we go eat kfc after that li juan buy the bubble ballon then she keep blow blow blow until she blow her sliva inside .
kinda disgusting . after that ,
we play crocodile at the playground .
then she is the crocodile marrhx . dann she chase us until she fall down .
wahahahhahahas .
after that under the block got some stupid Bangladesh quarreling .
then we go purposely go walk one round watch show . hahas .
then that li juan keep say later they chase us how ,
then i say of cause is run la . lols .
then i say u must carry michelle run . lols .
after that , went home lo .
this year , for my X'max wish shall not be present's anymore .
my X'max wish will be to have a car accident , and DIE immediatly on the spot .
or have a memory loss and my physical body unharm .
that's all i want for my X'max wish .
i crave's nothing more then this .
then maybe after i die , everyone will be sad ,
but they will be alright after my song ka . lols .
after that everybody will forget about AMANDA this girl . lols .
or can just someone murder me ?
kill me or just throw me into the sea and let me drown to death .
life's a joke .
how does it feels like to lose something without knowing it?
life is rather wierd ,
we know what is right and yet not doing it
we pursue things that are not eternal ,
people are realistic .
Trashh it'
Crush it'
Chomp it'
IM DEADD:))*
wick-ed'ly true*
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
seriously , i don't like people to have similar things with me .
I DON'T like people who does whatever i does ,
want whatever i have , do whatever in what i do .
1st priority ,
get a house .
why not get a car ??
you may think .
but in my opinion , car is only for luxury .
lols , k la enouff of my stupid crapping .
i'm so gonna murder myself .
i feel so lazy everyday .
i wanna eat good food .
i wanna eat ice-cream now .
i want to get a BED of my own .
i wanna DIE .
i want people to KILL ME .
i want a fairy that can make my wishes come true .
i want to be slimer .
i want no pimple .
i want to have a HAPPY FAMILY .
i want to be pretty girl .
i want to be like ayumi !
i want everything i want .
mad , i'm going .
let me scream .
' ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRXXXXXXXXXX '
currently crapping with erziiey .
lols . write till here ba .
TAKE CARE MY BEAR
GET WELL SOON !!!!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, November 20, 2006
today , was late for my dance practise =x .
my maid la , forget to wake me .
rOaRRrx .
then haii me need to run 25 rounds in the dance room .
anyway nevermind , can treat it as i burning my fats .
so can be slimmer .
dance practise is till 3.3opm
and it Fcuking rain !!
though i like the whether BUT i was dranch wet on my way home .
you know how disgusting i feel ?
it was like eurr sweat mix with the raindrops on your skin .
then it will feel so superbly uncomfortable . YUCKS !!
lucky i got home real fast .
have a quick bath and off to baby house .
watch step up in his parents room . lols .
don't need waste money to cinema to catch it le .
hubbiiey's dad bought it . hehhehx .
then after the ' movie ' , watch the 7pm show at channel 8 .
last episode leiihx . the show quite nice la , but the ending like werid werid one de .
after that show , play with hubbiiey .
play what ?? play wrestling with baby .
we play until like mad people sia . like small kid like that .
hubbiiey keep chocking me T_T .
then keep slam me on his parent bed , sommore his dog keep bite my toe .
rOarrRx . but got my revenge la . i also got make him back . hahas .
then after that went home early to let hubbiiey study for his test for tomorrow .
hahas .
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU HUBBIIEY .
OIINK KIIES ??
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, November 19, 2006
rain rain go away
come again another day .
my throat is kinda dry .
and it's so irritating .
the weather is hot .
and it's so irritating .
my PIMPLE is POPPING OUT .
and IT"S SO IRRITATING .
ROARRRRRR ~ !!!
stupid singapore , why don't have four season wan !!!
if got that would be more better .
i'm now in my own house le . tomorrow still have dance practise ,
sure will be hell tiring .
took hell lots of photo today , not only today ,
yesterday and friday .
got loads of photo to upload , but don't know where to start .
hahas . next week still going sengkang AND uncle going bring us all to marina bay to eat !!
yeah . .
stupid pic .
k la . end here now .
good nites BaOb3ii .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Saturday, November 18, 2006
woOt .
currently at sengkang le .
just reach here yesterday .
today , went swimming with my biao mei .
[ biao jie doing her flash project , so can't accompany us ]
lols . i think she teach me teach until she abit mad .
cause i really don't know how to swim . and i'm afraid to be in the pool .
everytime in the pool will feel pressurize . but at LEAST ,,
at the end of the ' lesson ' i manage to swim 3 to 4 times of frog style .
lols . i know its lame la . but i really have no talent to swim . hahas .
after swimming , we head back to her house to have our lunch .
yeah ~..!! talking about lunch , guess what we had for our breakfast ,,
it's SUSHI !!! lols . vey werid to have sushi for breakfast also don't know why my aunt and uncle buy . hahas .
BUT ,, the sushi is delicious . hahas .
then about 4 like that , we went to hougang to get our earring .
lols . finally got my Cinderella's Carriage & Heel (Mis-Match) Earring le .
my biao jie got her crown earring . hahas .
then went down to the 1st floor saw the Mr. bean promotion thing .
and got the Mr.bean guy standing there shaking hands with small kid .
lols . then my biao mei go take photo with him . hahas .
before taking with him , she go smack Mr.bean 2 times leiihx . hahahahas .
i was laughing like hell at there .
here's the picture with my biao mei with MR. BEAN !! lols .
then we went to mac to have our evening tea break . hahas .
after that went up to 4th floor to take neoprints . hahas .
we haven even take a neoprint already in the neo machine cam-whoring lo .
kinda funny la .
i love this two photos .
this is me , wishing .... lols .
me , pointing middle finger . wahahahahhahas . LMAO !!!
too bad , can't upload our neoprints . cause my biao kor haven't reach home can't help us scan our photos . BOOOOOOOO.....~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here are LOADS of our pictures . wahahahhaahhaas .
but didn't get to upload them all .
me , before going to hougang .
ya , i know this look very stupid . hahas .
well update till now barrhx .
for our neoprints pictures ,
Go To :
http://xiiaobennzhu.multiply.com/photos/album/9
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, November 16, 2006
.
this is how i look when i was just a kid .
kinda lame to upload this photos la .
hahas .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
my blog is rotting .
apart of me is dying .
i'm losing my temper already .
kinda feeling lonely at home everytime .
anyway , will be going over to sengkang on friday again .
cheers~ o(^.^)p for me .
i think thats the only place i will be going over for my holidays .
i wanna go zoo , night safari and bird park .
ya i know i have been saying this for lots of times .
but , everybody seems so busy doing their own stuff .
well then , i shall not crave to go to all these places again .
there's still lots more of places i wanna go ,
lots of movie i wanna catch ,
lots of time i wanna spend my time with ,
but , there's no time .
sometimes , i miss the kiddy side of me , the kiddy side that was there before .
but , the kiddy side of me seems to fade away .
it's good to be a kid .
i don't think i ever wanna grow up .
being a kid is good .
sometimes , i asked myself :
will i ever be the person i was ??
the answer will be yes . maybe i would , if i try really hard , i could .
i'm so addicted to BecK songs now .
it totally rocks . another animation i'm watching is chobits .
this animation is kinda 'pervert' . but its nice .
i'm so bored , bored , bored , bored , bored , bored , bored !!
15 things i may will do when i'm bored :
1. scream
2. crap
3. do stupid things
4. disturb other people or my dog
5. cry
6. sleep , sleep , sleep and sleep
7. go out walk walk
8. use my lappy
9. watch tv
10. daydream
11. stuff myself with food
12. complain
13. play piano
14. throw temper
15. wonder & ponder
lols . enough of my stupid crap .
i can't sleep !!!
i have been thinking and thinking and thinking .
crying and crying and crying for what i'm thinking .
ya , i know it's stupid . but whenever i think of all those unpleasent things i will cry .
after crying then will sleep until more peaceful .
i have a habit of whenever before bed , i will think and think of different things luhhs .
so that it will make my mind more tired then i will fall asleep faster .
lols .
but sometimes it dosen't work .
like now . well , i call this dreaming before sleep .
hahas ~~~!!!
well , i'm gonna end here .
good nights my BaOb3ii bloggy .
i love yoOu~
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, November 12, 2006
well , haven't been blogging for few days .
lols . my blog is in a mess now .
aiya . whatever la .
friday , i was having fever .
i wanted to go to sentosa badly .
but too bad . blame the stupid me and the stupid rain .
got caught in the rain on thursday .
lols .
despite having fever , i still went to sengkang .
abit foolish la . but upon reaching there ,
my fever subside liao ma .
having lots of fun with my two adorable cousins .
hahas .
taken photo with them today .
and i really love this picture .
i love my baby~
i have something too give you .
kinda childish la .
but hope you will like it .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
my 'SCREWED' list
------>relationship - [screwed ]
------>family - [screwed ]
------>school - [screwed ]
------>temper - [screwed ]
------>my life - [screwed ]
I'm so screwed. i feel screwed. i can't cope with my feelings. i'm always feeling down. very down. i couldn't control my temper already. like losing it oftenly. damn it la. in short, i'm screwed.
it feels like everything is out to make me lose control.
i'm in no control of anything at all.
i'm in shit mood now.
i just hate the things going on between us.
i guess being physically tired makes me think lesser.
suddenly , i find myself being a weakling .
ya . i admit i'm weak . so what's big about it ?
i'm weak . i really am .
they always say ' cheer up '
if it is so easy ....
if ...
well , frankly speaking , i'm not interested in the advanture camp .
i tried to adviod it , but it's still in my way .
maybe it's fated . hahas .
since i'm in , i just have to contribute lor .
just have to look on the bright side of life .
da da dada da da da da da da~
today , i was so mentally and phsically tired .
need help out with the house work , need to get crapping from my granny .
i've never been so sad .
throughout this years .
you know , i feel so like dying off from this world .
i feel so lonely in my house .
the only person that i have good relation with ,
can talk to with , can share my everything with ,
have left house .
ya . that's my mom .
she's been staying at my aunt house , i guess she won't be back for weeks ba .
it's too stressful for her .
though , i wanted to stop all these , but i'm just a kid , what can i do ??
i'm not the worst , there's people out there some where in the world ,
is far more worst then me .
but , who want's their family to be everyday quarreling ??
no one does like that .
enough of my complaining .
i just hate to see my family like that la ,
then friday , going sengkang live with my cousins ,
then next whole week i'm not going for bridging .
it's already holiday and still need go school ,
this totally sucks like shit .
from two month of holiday become 1 month holiday .
it stinks man .
today watch finish the whole of BECK .
damn nice for me la .
only for those who like punk rock music band may like this .
only 26 episodes .
i'm still waiting for bleach ep 1o2 .
think i will write till here ba .
good night BaOb3ii bloggy .
I SAY I LOVE YOU BABY~
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, November 05, 2006
things are getting more complicated now .
WHO THE FUCK IS DESMOND ???
WHY DID YOU FUCKING ACCUSE ME THAT I SMOKE WHILE BRINGING MY DOG DOWN FOR A WALK .
WHICH FUCKING EYES OF YOU SEE ME BRINGING DOWN MY DOG DOWN FOR A WALK . YOU FUCKING PUA CHEE BYE .. I HAVEN'T BRING MY DOG DOWN FOR A WALK FOR AGES . IT'S LIKE 2 OR 3 MONTHS SINCE I BRING HIM DOWN FOR A WALK . YOU FUCKING BASTURD WHY DID U TELL MY BRO THAT I FUCKING SMOKE WHICH I DIN'T . I'M GONNA FUCKING MAKE YOU APPOLOGISE TO ME FOR THAT YOU FUCKING BASTURD . CHAO CHEE BYE LA . YOU GO FUCK SPIDER . KNN . TMD . AND WHAT DID I DONE TO YOU TO MAKE U ACCUSE ME . AND I DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHO U ARE . ARE YOUR EYES BLIND OR WHAT ?? THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND LOOK LIKE ME AND MAY EVEN HAVE A DOG THAT LOOK ALIKE FORD . YOU FUCKING CHEE BYE . YOU SO WANT PLAY WITH ME ISZT , I SURE PLAY WITH YOU DE . SO LIKE TO JOKE LIKE , I FUCKING JOKE WITH YOU . TMD KNS .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
okay , i have reach home at around 6+pm .
baby and i have a small tiff yesterday .
and sometimes , whenever we have a tiff ,
i feel so not like to talk to him or even sloving the problems .
i need more time to think about it .
and i know if i talk to him after we just had a tiff ,
i'm sure i gonna throw my displeasure at him .
and it's so exasperation of having a tiff with him .
one moment we were ok ,
the next moment we were falling-out .
it pains my heart whenever we did that .
i shall stop talking about now ...
SATURDAY [ o411o6 ]
after the tiff with baby , i went to sengkang and stayed overnight .
alright , my cousins was so adorable and cute despite her stupid ness .
[ hahas , refering to my cousin biao mei only ]
[no offence yeah ?!? hahas . ]
reach her house was at about 5+ going to 6pm le barrhx .
then went to use her house com to msn baby to let him know that i had reach sengkang ler .
after that , i cam whore with my biao mei . hahas .
my biao jie was in the tolit bathing .
-habit number 1 of my cousin ..
-she takes a very long time to bathe .
about 1hour plus to have her bathe done .
after that , my yi jiong [ uncle ] and yi ma [ aunt ] went compass point to get our dinner for us .
live in their house damn nice .
i love how their house was decorated .
i love the spacious of their house .
i just love everything .
they bought me mee pok .
damn delicious but very expensive .
guess how much it was ....
it cost $4 nia . si bei ex lor .
then we were all watching tv while dining in the living room .
[ fuck la . i really no mood to post liao . my family are quarreling . i fucking hate my family . i want to have a peaceful family . i just came home and this is the piece of shit they gave me . i don't even feel family warmth for a very very long time as i can remember . i fucking wish to have a family of my own right now . my mom is so fed-up of my granny even i'm too . my granny fucking want to find trouble for my mom and i fucking hate it . why does she have to do that . and now my mom is fucking stress up . she keep complaining wanting to move away . i don't want that to happen . i fucking don't want it to happen . i'm not angry or what , i'm just feeling damn upset now . streams of tears kept rolling down my face whenever they quarrel not because i'm in it . because we are one family , and my family is falling apart . i can hear quarreling everyday in my house . even hiding in my bro's room . i just fucking want to die right right away . if i can die to slove the problems , i am fucking willing to die . my granny is so unreasonable . i know she's sick , but does that mean a sick person can torture my mom over the years . i understand my mom is living in hell all this years . my granny do not allow my mom to visit her own parents . do you know is so upset for her . granny even scold my mom's mom ccb and all sorts of vulgar you can think of .
WTF I'M SO DAMN PISSED . I SHOUTED AT MY GRANNY JUST NOW CAUSE SHE BITTED MY MOM . MY GRANNY WANTED TO CHOKE TO DEATH WITH HER MEDICINE AND MY MOM OF CAUSE STOP HER .
i'm fucking stressed up . nobody can actually know what i'm feeling right at this moment nobody . no words can describe my unhappiness my dissatisfaction , my everything . i smile everyday cause i don't want to be upset . I FUCKING WANT TO DIE AWAY FROM THIS WORLD . I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY . I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING . NO VULGAR CAN EXPRESS MY HATRED . NOTHING CAN EXPRESS HOW I FEEL . . ]
i shall blog next time .
i love dear...
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Friday, November 03, 2006
Today , I'm feverish again . it pissed me so much . .
well , todays blogging topic will be on . . .
The Mask which people have
This mask which people have
Joy, sadness, anger, fear.
Actors, Actress, people around us
Drama never ceases.
A good drama to win votes
A good show to gain support from friends
A good act so as not to bother friends with self problems [ most of the girls i know does that including me ]
A happy mask to cover saddness
A sad mask to gain sympathy
A angry mask to keep people away
A worried mask to act concerned
Happy , sad , joy , worry , anger , overwhelmed , confused , dismayed , disappointment , excitment...
Which mask have you decided to put on today?
I'm happy today...fresh...
Then...wait again..
Am I genuinely happy?!?
ok.. enough of my stupid theory..
while having my free times at home ,
i was just surfing around the internet and found this lyrics ,
it's pretty meaningful la...
though I'm a free thinker..
I don't know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day
I don't borrow from it's sunshine
For it's skies might turn to grey
I don't worry over the future
For I know what Jesus said
And today I'll walk beside him
For he knows what is ahead
Chorus:
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand
Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb
Every burden's getting lighter
Every cloud is silver-lined
There the sun is always shining
There no tears will dim the eyes
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the moutain touch the skies
I think thats the end of the song lyrics barrhx...
sometimes , i really wonder if there is really after-death life ?? i wonder whether after-death is really beautiful as it protrays . it may be peaceful after-death as it seems , but is it really true ?? sometimes , i really want to feel what is it like to be dead , or even half dead . i wanted to exprience whats the feel of after-death life . hahas . i know i'm being mad or you may think i'm crapping . BUT , its always nice to dream , yeah , right ?? DREAMs are one of the reason we live for . At least , my problems are being pushed aside for the time being now . I can always put on a smile at my face . ^^
why is it a raining day everytime i'm a bit of feverish . I'm feeling cold now adays . I'm always wearing my long pants , long sleeve shirt and wearing my socks to bed . SEE , this it how cold every night to me is..
my stupid pimples kept poping out at my face . i feel so pissed man . and it takes a longer time to heal then it poping out . ROARRRRRRRR!!!!
pimple poping out at my face = ANGRY AMANDA !!!!
if i have the money , i'm gonna go sliming session and facial session every week!!!!
ok , enough of my complaining and whining .
i'm off to rest lo .
good-bye my BaOb3ii bloggy..
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
alright , today i was feverish so din't turn up for bridging .
i was now addicted to the online game supasupa . hahas . baby intro to me de .
kinda bored la today . whole day stay at home . baby today let me train supasupa with his charecter . hahas . at 1st i play v funny , we keep laughing and laughing at each other . hahas .
at 1st i want create account then i keep cannot go to the website , then hubbiiey help me create . hahas .
THANKS BABY~!! <3
then we started playing , baby teach me how to play . though i today play for just hours and lvl up 8 times , i'm still a noob compare to hubbiiey . hahas .
k la . gonna have my beauty sleep le .
good-bye my BaOb3ii blOggy .
i love you MrPiiNk~...
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying