THE BAITCH
The name's AMANDA.
我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .
想要的 : Materialistic .
我最真的爱 : BeStIe!
我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x
'Cause im from Venus
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
The wonders of what emotions can do to you.
When there is love, there is hate . When there is hate , there is love . The two emotions somehow seem to have a very perpetual relationship between one another .
Yet , this ' relationship ' seems to haunt every single soul out there in the universe .
You love one , you hate another , you hate another , yet you love one .
And you can't figure up whether to hate or to love .
It's really amazing what these two emotions can do to you . You either end up psychotic , or you end up fine . I really admire and love these two emotions because it has left me lost and hanging in the middle of no where for so long . You just don't seem to know when you have to love and when you have to hate .
It's as good as a people taking things for granted , and only coming to realize how important something actually is until it vanishes into thin air . Then , guilt and morose set in , which results in depression and then , the thought of committing suicide .
Am i right ? ?
It makes you really wonder what and where the heart really is .
Is it an organ?
Or is it a feeling?
Is it really inside you?
Or is it smack right outside where your skin is that you feel tinge of pains?
Sometimes you hate yourself for your foolish acts but yet you don't seem to really learn from it because you don't want to . I really hate myself for everything most of the time .
I know I've very bad attitude problems , thats why I'm trying to change now .
I used to show a lot of attitude to people around me last time . They used to tolerate also .
I also used to expect them to give in . Always complaining .... Saying stupid things ....
But now , I realised how childish I was ....
It just that sometimes when I'm pissed off .... I duno what so say
When I'm angry , the things I said , I didnt use my brain and think before I say
ending up offending the people around me .. hurting people's feelings .
I just dont really know how to tolerate things when I'm angry larrhx and
I dont spare a thought for other people when I'm pissed .
i've serious attitude problem sometimes =/
But I'll try to change my attitude problem .
so finally holidays are here and boredom caught up with me .
I still have my bridging and my dance practise . It's not a relaxing holiday after all .
I'm afraid of gaining weight man , i'm too heavy already ,
need to BURNNN fats .. !!
i seriously need a BIG and NERDY specs . my eyesight is getting poorer and poorer .
actually , i found one . but , i'm afraid mama won't buy for me . she don't like me to wear specs ..
and she don't even like me to wear contacts too , though i always wear .
I wonder if that everything is under $10 then that will be great . hahas .
but thats the impossible .
Sometimes , i just feel something is lacking in my life .
anyway , after writing down about how unsatisfied i am with my life, i'm feeling much much better. like.. maybe someone out there in the world will understand how i feel. i find it hard to express how i feel to my friend so yeah. it helps.
Fuck that , fuck that .
alright , enough of my crapping .
good-bye my BaOb3ii bloggy .
hubbiiey i love you
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, October 30, 2006
i'm so fucking damn pissed . i was about to finish updating my blog , and my lappy auto shut down cause got problems . FUCK LARR . need re-write again . TMD . . .
nebbermiind . i write again . .
here it goes . . .
haven't been blogging for the past few days le .
now , i shall blog about my happenings the past few days .
starting off with saturday [ 281oo6 ] .
SATURDAY [ 28oo6 ]
woke up at about 6.45am . actually was waking up at 6am de . i too lazy and tired le . so woke up at 6.45am . went to prepare myself and went to hubbiiey place .
reach baby place at about 8am+ .
baby was sleeping like pig leiihx . his room so hot and abit stuffy still can sleep until so pig .
hahas . then i lie beside him sleep awhile .
not even a while , woke hubbiiey up cause i too bored liao and i want to have our breakfast outside ma .
by the time hubbiiey prepare hao le , he going late for lesson . so din't get to have our breakfast . T_T
then baby and me went down to take cab to katong mall . baby having his last theory lesson before going for exam ma .
wa bang , the cab fare very $$ sia . almost $2o leiihx . waste our $$ .
that day is my 1st time to katong mall . hubbiiey take me to the cold storage to buy something to eat 1st . then baby peii me walk around . ok la , nothing much over there . cause too early liao , a lot of the shop haven't start their business . after walking around , hubbiiey told me to walk around opposite the mall too . then he went for lesson le . and i'm all alone . . .
1st , i went opposite . there sell a lot food sia . almost the whole street also food stall de . but too bad , i din't have my breakfast there . too much variety of food to choose le . i also don't know to eat . hahas . after exploring there , went back katong mall walk .
saw the hair salon , actually wanted to get my hair dyed de . but still got that DAMN bridging , and later if i dyed my hair not enough $$ to last my day .
then went to the 4th floor , saw a spa shop , went in and got my eye brown pluck . hahas .
not bad la , better then the previous ' plucking ' . that time i ask the lady pluck she go fucking shave sia . something wrong with her hearing sia . sommore shave until KNS . she shave till unbalance lor . 1 thinker 1 thinner . lucky not so obvious arhx . if not pai seh dao yao si arhx . .
after getting my eyebrown pluck , went out of katong mall and explore the shops beside it . also nothing much leiihx , until i got into 1 pet shop . there's one cat so adorable . keep wanting me sayang him . then sayang liao he go bite me . those play play the bite la . not serious the . then the shop owners told me to say ' pain , NO ' to the cat , then i say to the cat , the cat really stop biting me . so clever . hahahas .
i chatted with the shop owners there for quite sometimes' la . until hubbiiey call me to go back . hahas ^^ . then before i go , the shop owners gave me 2 sample of dog food to let my ford ford try . hahas . such nice people where to find liao . lolx . ^^
met hubbiiey outside katong mall , he say me explore until don't want come back liao har .
lols . then peii baby went to find his piano teacher to bid goodbye cause last lesson le ma . after that took cab again to starhub centre . we really can be ' cabby siao ' liao la . keep take cab . hahas . this time round is hubbiiey and my 1st time there . hahas . then serch for the exam place 1st after that go walk around lor . went into a shop to buy sweets then hubbiiey ask me help him choose birthday card for sandra . then i suggest baby to go heeren buy more choice marrhx . sommore heeren also near starhub centre . hehhehx . then baby bought newpaper and i bought sweets . wahahahahas .
after that we went to the place where the exam is held , me and hubbiiey sit at staircase rest . hubbiiey reading the newspaper then i play with my handphone . so lame . people all studying for theory then hubbiiey like the only one so relax read newspaper sia . hahas . then just before the examination start , we went to the tolits then we waited out the exam room . so qiao , we met hubbiiey de gugu , and his cousin also taking the exam . sommore baby siting number is 177 then his cousin sitting number is 178 sia . very qiao . hahas .
after hubbiiey went in to the examination room , i waited at the staircase for him about 2hr plus until i dose off at there sia . then baby woke me up . so pai seh leiihx . cause got people also sitting at the staircase waiting ma . hahas .
baby call his gugu ask her where she is , then she at PS ma . we actually want go de , but we got lost . hahas . we ask got ask her for direction but we still got lost . hahas . in the end , we took bus 57 to raffles hospital then went to take Mrt to sommerset .
we go Heeren serch for birthday card le then go Cine . wa lan . i see a lot of shop then my xin yang yang want to go shopping nia . but cannot . need to save $$ go eat sushi . hahas . then went to Cine de Suki Sushi to have our breakfast kum lunch kum dinner . lols . we eat a lot sia , i can't finish my dish . but only left alittle bit la . then we sit at there for very long leiihx , people later then us come in earlier leave then us . hahas . then i sit there help hubbiiey write the card for Sandra . lols . after that , we went to watch DOA [ dead or alive ] . hahas . not bad la . i only love the fighting parts . but i don't like the ending . lols . after that we took Mrt home lo . actually want take neoprints , but hubbiiey and my eye very red cause of the contact lens . the Mrt was so cramp man . hahas . din't get to find seats to sit . so we stand all the way .
then reach boon lay , baby pei me take 181 then we both sleep in the bus . too tired ma . hahas . i alight 1st then after that is hubbiiey . end of my saturday . hahas .
SUNDAY [ 291oo6 ]
woke up with my right eye swallon and red . DAMN IT . my maid was off yesterday . so i'm the one who sweeps the floor and mop the floor . can i be cinderella ?!? hahass. LMAO . dad brought KFC for us , i ate only the salad and smashed potatos . hahas . then whole day slack lor . nothing much to do yesterday .
TODAY [ 3o1oo6 ]
woke up late today . as usual i was very lazy . hahas . woke up at 7am . then went to bathe . TMD i very long never morning bathe then i today morning bathe very cold . cause not used to the cold ma . i shiver like hell . then meet perlyn at 7.25am . i tot i was late sia . but actually just nice . hahas.
today , that stupid singh scold people like hell sia . he like having PMS . .
then we all sit at the parade ground got free show see . lols .
went up to class . done nothing much . homeworks homeworks and homeworks .
cry liao la . 3 weeks of bridging leiihx . got holiday like no holiday like that .
then that siva never come still give us SS homeworkx . sian .
sommore that singh keep walking in and out of the classroom . so irritating .
after that is maths . then i went home with swiitheart lyn le .
thats all . TaDa !!!
i love my baby~!
I WAN TO SLIM DOWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Friday, October 27, 2006
i just uploaded all my photo's using multiply as it is easier to view my photo's . ^^
http://xiiaobennzhu.multiply.com/photos this is the url and i have put it in my links .
tomorrow , i will be accompanying hubbiiey to his theory exam worrhx .
hehhehx . hubbiiey now having his theory lesson , and i'm alone for the whole day .
today kinda boring la~ afternoon raining , and i slept till the rain stop . wake up corr hubbiiey , he in cab on the way go katong , then we talk awhile and i hang up go do bo liao things .
like burning candles and disturbing my dog when he sleeping . hahas .
how i want to be dranched in the rain again .
i remember clearly that day o4o3o4 .
i was walking home with hui ting and hubbiiey . it rained while on our way home .
we were all dranched wet in the rain . and i wore black in the inside and it was damn obvious .
then hui ting let me carry her bag to cover cause my bag was a sling bag then hubbiiey walk behind me help me cover .
then walk till 812 there the rain already stop le and hui ting went home .
left only me and hubbiiey .
hubbiiey pei me walk home dan bu zhi bu jue dunno why we will hold hands . hahas ^^
that is how we got together without asking for steading . hahas .
come to think of it damn funny lor . . keke XP .
ok la write till here le .
hubbiiey tomorrow must jia you oiink kiies . cya tomorrow baby~
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, October 26, 2006
SUNDAY [221oo6] was a FUN day . wahahahahahahax . im sO happy .
i went out with my cOusins family .
and guess what ..?
we went to lots of places and we took lots of pictures .
it's a cam whoring day .
1st , i went over to sengkang . the train was pack with indians man . i was so uncomfortable standing beside them lor . they are talking so loudly lor . i hate them when they stare at me . it was damn uncomfortable . and i can't stand their smells . they are so heavily scented with jasmine fragrant . and there was 1 guy standing infront of me keep touching his ' there' .
not i purposely go look wan . it's pure accident . i was taking my handphone out of my bag and saw it . it was so GROSS . and i almost PUKE at the MRT . then i change the train at outram park to punggol . and there's 1 crazy fellow . keep laughing to himself . lols.
then i meet my cousins at sengkang just outside their condo . cause need to have pass then can enter the condo and their parents waiting for me at the carpark . 1st thing i did when i got into the car , was that i'm laughing like mad . hahas .
laughing at my biao kor hairs . hahas . it looks so awful . =X .
i can't find my use to be handsome biao kor anymore .wahahahhahahas .
we went to the goat farm at around kranji there . and it was raining heavily . hahas .
then my yi ma and my biao kor used the umbrella go to the goat farm 1st .
after that my biao kor came back with 2 other umbrella . lols .
i share 1 of the umbrella with my biao mei .
my biao jie have 1 and my biao kor share with my uncle .
my biao jie is a gong kia ....
we were all dranch wet in the rain . got unbrella like no unbrella like that . hahas .
then , we went in . there was lots of goats there . and they look so adorable and cute .
especially the young goats that was just born . hahas .
when i'm taking picture with the goats , the small goat keep biting my jacket and hair .
i was scared too hell man . they were like hungry ghost like that .
keep chewing my jacket whenever they could . i was so freak out boy .
my biao kor keep luaghing at me . he said when i'm taking picture with the goat ,
i looked so freak out as if i'm gonna cry . and when i help my biao kor take pics ,
he looks werid too . and i keep laughing at his pic .
i took picture with my biao jie and biao mei squating down . i love the pic so much . .
before we leave the place , actually my uncle wanted to buy the goat milk ,
but , disapppointly it have sold out . hahas .
i remember that there was once , when i was very small at about the age of 6 to 8 like that ,
i have been to the goat farm before and i drank the fresh goat milk .
and after i drank it , i can't take the smell of it and vomited . -_- "
after leaving the goat farm , we went to ' Qian Hu fish farm ' .
alright . i been there too with my dad . but it was years ago . .
there was a lot of differrent kind of fish . but most of the fish there is the koi fish .
some of the fishes there damn big lor . bigger then my hand .
saw a lot of fish that i've never seen before . hahas .
and there was 1 tank of stingray sia . the tail of the stingray have tiny little horns .
it looks like pimple on our face . wahahahahs .
at the fish farm , its also selling the hermit crab .
where junction 8 [ i think ] is selling . but the crab selling at junction 8 is much more beautiful then the ones in the fish farm , as in their shells .
after that , we have abit of light snacks at the fish farm .
the tolits there v wet and smelly . . and need to queue up 1 .
and behind the at the fish farm , there was like a mini garden .
they keep rabits and toads . hahas .
the rabbits are so cute . and the toads place stinks !!
right at the back of the garden , there was spa . .
spa as in what ??
it's a leg spa . same as the japanese want . they put small little fishes in the water ,
and they will eat up your dead skin as their food . -_-'
1 min per $1 and its so $$$ . and yet there were quite a lot of people trying it .
after our trip to the fish farm , we went to the farm mart !!
i've been to there too . it's our school brought us there wan during my sec 1 or 2 .
hehehe . i have such a good memory worrhx . ^^
there were lots of shop at there . there's 1 corner , where people can fish up the prawn .
but i think it's so silly to wait hours and hours for the prawn to come up to your bait lor .
there was 1 shop that owns birds , mouse , rabbit and hamham .
the love birds are soo adorable . it was not kept in its so cage and yet it won't fly away .
i wonder how the shop owners train them .
i took pics with the lovebird in my hand !!
and , i'm glad that it din't shit at my hand . hahas .
after walking the whole place , we went to jurong point ^^ .
we have our dinner there . that day .jurong point was flooded with people .
and we need to wait and find places to sit . hahas .
after taking dinner , we walk around then went to basement to get kerbab for my dear granny .
and they drove me home safetly ^^.
tadaaaa!!! end of my day ^^ .
today went to take results with mama . so tired .
hehe . finally got my ic .
i din even look at it and my mama took away .
so sad . . .
hahas...
i hope everythings fine between both of you . .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, October 22, 2006
alright , i just came back from hubbiey apartment . lols . this morning went to his house at 9+ then at his house there very hot leiihx . hubbiiey still can sleep like pig like that . that stupid jolynn keep call me molester , sommore still do the stupid molester cheer . LMAO -_-" .
actually don't want to wake hubbiiey up wan , i'm just too bored , so , i keep hitting him with his pillow and he still refuse to wake up . -_-"
and it make me more wanna wake him up . lols . i took a highlight and draw on his arm , his leg , his chest , his armpit . HaHAs . after he woke up i kanna punish from him , and the punishment was ge tickle me . but it only lasted awhile . hehhehx .
after eating breakfast , went to room with hubbiiey , watch "little man" with his lappy . ok , then after "little man" was "me , you and dupree" , that wan , i watch till fall asleep . too tired mahx .
i think , before i fall asleep dickson came back . then he came into the room , and ask me , " bu hui re meiihx " , then i was " uh??" , then he repeated two or three times , and i finally figure out what he ask saying , then i was like , am i deaf or what , i'm having hearing problem . lol . then he on the air-con for us damn shock arhx .
today , hubbiiey got work , then he watch the show also watch till fall asleep then bout 5.30 + , he suddenly wake himself and me up . lolx . hahas .then we keep rushing cause hubbiiey work starts at 6 and he's late & it's at lot 1 . . and hubbiiey everytime late for work if not is forget got work . lols .
then his mama drive me home , and drive hubbiey to work . lols . she drive till very hiong sia . at 1st in the carpark i was like duh . . she drive down the carpark damn fast sia . i sit in the car quite scared sia . hahas . but , she have safetly send me home . lols .
yesterday , my old neighbours came to our house , and yes , they were indians . they brought all the indian tibits aunt make for us . and i love her cooking always man . i love eating muruku and all . o ya . happy deepavali !!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Friday, October 20, 2006
hey~ erm , , just wanna appologise to my swiitheartx . iLOVEu .
sOwiie wOrrx . i was influence by the others . hOpe that yoOu will nOt be hurt anymore .
i here by prOmise i will be truthful to yoOu . ya? alright . ^^V .
i din't know that eurr that hurt . . i will never ever do this kind of lame shitty things to ya ever again . 5 yrs of our relationship as friend cannot be spolit by those rumors . yeahx ? right ?
mmm . just want to lead a peaceful life as a student in the shucky school with all of my dear girls . and lastly hope xs will not be angry with me anymore .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
i was playing this stupid IMVU game just now , and it was damn stupid lor. i dunno how to play . i want to change my avatar . the newbie avatar damn ugly lor . then when the char run also very ugly . werid werid wan...
sigh , i don't know what my granny want . i don't know what she need . i don't know what she's saying . i don't know everything . she kept on finding things to do rather then rest and i'm just sitting beside her blogging . sigh . i wanted her to just lie down take a nap or just watch tv and forget about the pain . but she just won't listen and scolded me . i'm so upset lor .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
din't go to school this morning , my granny fall of from her bed and hurt her head . her head was bleeding lor , then she cry . very poor lor . then now she's sleeping le . i today need take care of her so can't go for dance liao , cause no one taking care of her at home . sommore mummy last night then tell me she tonight going thailand with her company . . . -_-"
o ya . the death note right , the death god love to eat apple's . hahas . cute right . then i think part 2 of the death note , 1 girl will also be having a death god like in the comics . the 'L' in the movie looks very same with the 'L' in the comics lor . hahas . but 'L' in the comics behind behind die . then his two cousin also very clever wan help him investigate kira .
o my god !! i just went to check on granny and her blood haven stop coming out from her forhead and shes still asleep . then her blood drip until her ear there i go take cotten bud help her wipe and i used up to 4 cotten bud to completly wipe off her blood lor . lucky she din't wake up . if not she cry again then keep saying want to die , then she will try different ways of suicide . so must every min go check on her . wa lao . i see her i also can feel the pain in my heart . she take care of me when i'm v young so it's my turn to take care her le .
later need to call the school and talk to mdm pan liao . . sian . .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, October 19, 2006
WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BLEACH EP 1oo IS FINALLY OUT .
I'M GONNA D/L NOW . WAHAHAHAHAHAHAS .
WAITING FERR BLEACH EP 101!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
i just came home from hubbiiey house. and feeded my granny her supper.
today , watch death note with hubbiiey . the show DAMN NICE . but it's different from the comics . hubbiiey say the death note maybe will come out every month cause the movie still haven't end .
the main char is call 'light' then his death god is 'ryuk' <----[i think] , then the 2nd main is call 'L' . . 'L' is not his real name la . but i can't remember his real name , too long liao . hahas . i like 'L' charecter . he very cute and funny lor . hubbiiey and my seats were K 16 & 17 . sit there watch the movie damn clear lor . no head blocking our view . just nice .
everyone must watch death note!! damn nice!! and the whole theatre was almost full lor .
after the movie , went back hubbiey place to get my stuff . then took some pics with hubbiey and his DOG -_-" . haahs . lynn call me molester . cause accidentally hit tio her *** *** while playing with her . hahas =X . .
today cook spagetti for hubbiiey . dan when cutting mushroom , almost cut the tip of my middle finger . lucky got my nails protect arhx . if not really cut tio sure cry like hell wan .
tomorrow no school for me . hahas . pontang =X . but in the afternoon got go back school cause got dance . no different lor . but at least i can wake up late . wahahahahas .
WAITING FOR BLEACH EP 100 !!!!!!!
HOPE GRANNY FASTER GET WELL AND WILL NOT BE UPSET AND BE PAIN OVER HER INJURIES.
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
ok. this 2 are the pics i have just taken recently . dammit. few days ago , my face have NO PIMPLES .
and now , i have lots poping up just over a night .
si bei sian lor . i hate pimple at my face . .
dan jeff laogong just now ask me to write something about hime in my blog -_-"
and here i'm writing about him.
hahas. wish you long lasting relationship with eurr girlfriend hor.
must cherish each other okiies. not bad huh....
your date with your girlfriend same as mine.
yours is 040306 ,, and mine is 040304
2 years of different.
wakakakaka. so qiao~!
kiies la crap until here le..
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
ok . today , during dance damn slack lor , no teacher come up check on us . hahas .
dann i very tired fall alseep there . junior very hard working , ownself practise the dance themself. i dint even practise at all . all i do is just lie at there, guide the juniors and nothing more.
then when the dance going to end soon , bout half hour before , we all very stupid lor play one game . the times table game .
it goes like this .
we sit in one circle , than we decide which time table we want to use .
for example , we are using 7 times table ,
the 1st person will go saying one ,
then the 2nd person say 2 ,
and so on , until the number 7 .
we are playing 7 times table so cannot say out the times table of 7 , so must *clap* .
then continue with 8 and so on . and also cannot say out the number with 7 behind .
then if who loses , as in never clap or say wrongly , must FORFIT .
MuaHaHaHaHa .
clever me . din't lose at all . wahahahaha .
the forfit, everyone will take turn to do one stupid action and the forfiter must copy us and repeat it .
stupid right . .
i just now almost call police -_-" .
yOu knOw why ?
it's because hubbiiey went missing!!
missing person . . . lOLx.
we both very gong gong wan .
i reach home then cor hubbiiey house . then he not at home . cannot cor his hp cause lost marhx.
then i cor again and again serveral minutes later and later till i fall asleep . then when i fall asleep hubbiiey cor me -_-" .
then when i wake , i cor hubbiiey house . he still not at home . then i very worry sia . such a big guy went missing . . then almost call police . i also dunno where he have gone .
after awhile later , hubbiiey finally cor me again . using his hp .
then he say he having lesson -_-" .
then actually he have handphone, is hubbiiey mama fren lend wan .
days before, hubbiey also got use hp cor me . but i don't know is his hp . i tot is his fren wan . then i gong gong call his house never cor his hp . -_-"
stupid me . .
friday i gonna pon school . stupid lor . why must be tomorrow promotion day not friday .
ok la . hope things will be better from now on .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Finally can stop mugging le.
HOORAY~!!!
today, just got back all the results for exam. my results sucks like hell.
i just wished that i could be born clever..
luckily i just passed my overall . but i'm still worried about next year.
i wonder if i can stay in 4A1?
ok, don't talk about it le. the more i think of it the more i will be unhappy.
today, damn slack, in class only talk to my dear girls, play around and sleep. alot teacher din't turn up for lesson. but around 12.50, went to hall to attend what police talk.
i was like what the hell, si bei sian lor, during that talk. it's not even useful or what, i think only the lower sec people paying the most attention to the police guy talking. i don't even know what the officer saying, his pronounciation werid werid one. and he even compare us with the primary school kids.
duh -_-".
please, we are already teenager le. we know how to take care of ourself, we don't need some kind of police officer to come teach us what to do or not to do. the path of life we want to live is to be chosen by us not them. they can guide us but not taking control over our life!!
then, after the talk went home with my dear girls.
i wished granny to get well soon.
iLORVEhubbiiey~
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, October 16, 2006
i'm now currently talking on phone with hubbiiey .
okay , i'm now gonna blog about that boiboi [dominic] .
you know why?
it's because i'm so pissed with his maths results !
(hubbiiey now going sleep lo .
goOd night, sweet dreams, sleep tite and love yoOu~!)
that time, after we finish our maths paper, boiboi say that the maths very difficult.
and yet he can get so high marks for his maths paper.
i can't understand why some people are born to be clever!!
it's so unfair!! i want to be clever too!!
i have flunk my poa and i failed it very badly. but, anyway, i also don't have any interest in studying poa. luckily i passed my maths, if not, i'm sure gonna be dead =X
can i not go school from today onwards? it's so meaningless to go to school after our exam lor. also nothing to do. i wish can faster holiday then can rest. ^^
waiting for BLEACH EP 100
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
last night , i have just changed my blogskin .
is it nice ? i made it myself ^^
its still half way through .
and i'm still editing now.
erm, so got to go now ^^
i will update soon.
Love yoOu Baby~!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Saturday, October 14, 2006
BLEACH EP 99 IS FINALLY OUT !!! WOOHOO !!!
okies . nowdays life is kinda getting boring . sians .
i'm now currently downloading BLEACH EP 99 . hehheh ^^
i just realise , today , is ,
BLACK FRIDAY !!!!!
did anyone have gotten bad luck ?? lols .
tomorrow will be having dance practise .
and , i will be damn whipped .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Friday, October 13, 2006
stupid !!!!
i thought that bleach 99 have just been release but . . .
sigh . .
the web master only put the post but never update the downloads . .
so sad T_T . .
i'm going to sleep le .
hubbiiey ask miie to sleep early so must ting hua ^^ .
niitex DeaR . I LOVE YOU ~!
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Sunday, October 08, 2006
woOhOo !! i just reach home . i was not home from last night 7 plus till now .
26 hours away from home . cool huh ??
last night is lantern festival . did everyone have fun ? ^^
i was having and not having fun at times .
hubbiiey lost his handphone yesterday . i was damn angry with the fuckers that took baby handphone . all shitty fuckers . selfish fuckers . if i know who the fuckers is , i will blast their fucking heads off . FUCK U BLOODY FUCKERS . KNS . KNN .
i stay over at hubbiiey house till 5+ then dad came with mummy and drive me to NUH visit my granny . when granny saw me she looks so happy . i shall visit her more often . glad that she's doing fine at the hospital .
after that , dad drove us to eat sakae at the frontier community . XD
i ate a lot at there . and took photos with dad n mom . i shall post the photo abit later .
then we came home .
last night slept with hubbiiey in his air-conditional room very su fu . =)
i slept at around 4+ ba . we are watching bleach together .
very xin fu to be with hubbiiey . i want to be with him every now and then ^^ .
i love you hubbiiey .
hubbiiey don't be upset le . i curse those who took your handphone to hell , fall to death , kanna catch by police and curse them that all the bad things will happen to them .
YOU FUCKING WHORE !! QUIT YOUR ACTING LAR . STOP HURTING MY AH KOR . YOU PUA CHEE BYE . SO WHAT IF YOUR DAMN CLEVER ? WHATS THE USE , IF YOUR PERSONALITY SUCKS ? YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS MAN . ALTHOUGH I HAVE ATTITUDE TOO , BUT YOUR ATTITUDE PROBLEM IS WORST THEN MINE . PEOPLE ARE NICE TO YOU AND YET YOU FUCKING HELL TREAT THEM LIKE SHIT . THEY DON'T DESERVE IT AT ALL . YOU BETTER CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE . FUCKER .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Thursday, October 05, 2006
ok . i just woke up . DAMN ANGRY NOW!!
i'm so pissed with my nose . fUcK .
stupid nose-blocked . stupid stupid STUPID !!!
i can't breathe properly . and it make me feel so uncomfortable . and i'm having sore throat . and a little bit of cough !!
block-nose kum sore throat kum cough = unhappy me !
i was woke up by shi min . fatty minx . lOlx XD .
she called just to date me out . hahas . just kidding =X .
tomorrow serene wanted to eat pizza so ask us to eat with her norhx .
i'm gaining on weight again =( if i keep eating pizza every week .
then all of you will see a bloody fat btich walking around the school next time . hahas .
i cannot afford to gain weight again . cause i already lost 2kg . if i gain weight again all my hard work will be gone . and somebody will just keep calling me fat !
i want to go chinese garden to see lantern . but my dear girls don't wanna go .
they kept saying that go there only feed mosqitoe and nothing to walk . it's not true !!
lantern festival is for you to play with lantern , eat mooncake , and watch those beautiful lantern . i wonder if this year lantern festival will be a good wan for me ?
i'm still bloody pissed with my nose-block !!
FUCKING PANADOL . eat liao also no use .
can i just murder myself so i won't suffer anymore .
I'M SO FUCKING PISSED AND ANGRY NOW !! can someone just chill me down ?? i'm going crazy again .
tO hell with nose-block -_-" . .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
life is saddistic
went to school . took my english paper 1 and my social studies .
i'm sure i'm gonna fuking flunk my EOY .
after paper 1 was a break before social studies .
i was being bullied by all those guys again !! angry !!
they keep throwing paper ball at me . one day i'm sure gonna make those guys pay back for what they did too me . stupid sia . everytime only bully me !!
after that we took social studies paper and went home . and then tomorrow will also be my doom date . tomorrow is PoA and i still don't even know the basic format . i have been fully concentraing on my maths and physics . till i forget bout my other subject .
god . EOY is such a torture !
quick ! faster 9th of oct then it will be my last paper . then i will be free from all the studyings . XD
and i will be so happy . i'll be jumping for joy .
i can't wait till after EOY . i'll be then enjoying life happily . XD
spending more time with my friends. going shopping maddness . and i'll most probably staying out late at night =D and i'll go job hunting to past time and get more and more cash to shop . XD
i finally got a date on lantern festival !!
its a date out with my dear girl's XD . im so happy .
CONGRATS to xiao si parent today is their wedding anniversary . they are such a loving couple . today they are going out together as a family to celebrate this special day . i'm so envy of them .
i very wanted to accompany you everyday but i guess we don't have the time for each other =(.
got to get some sleep now . i just taken two tablets of cold relief panadol . feeling v uncomfortable.
maybe i'm too mentally tired ba . X(
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
today was superbly normal for me . just that times when i'm too bored that i went crazy and behaved like a psycho.
i slep at 10.30pm after quarreling with him . and woke up at 3.30am . to study . .
went to school . was busying going through my geography note and i found out that i have forgotten to bring my DAMN calculater and chinese dictionary . FUCK . lucky lyn sweethearrtx help me brorrow from her dear friend . but acutally during the geography exam i din even touch the calculater XD . what a waste . . and my mother tougue paper 1 sure get very low marks . cause i left lots of black spaces =X . .
i have a feeling that i will flunk all my paper badly . . oh heavens !! i can't afford to flunk all my subjects . i'm gonna murder myself . . i don't want to appear in school tomorrow can someone just murder me??
thanks shi zheng lend me s studies.. XD
murdering myself . .
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying
'Cause im from Venus
Monday, October 02, 2006
i fucking hate exam!!
i fucking hate exam!!
i fucking hate exam!!
i fucking hate exam!!
i fucking hate exam!!
i fucking hate everything . cause everything FUCK!!
((only not for my sweetiies dear and friends around me))
DARN , i just studied my maths for 2 hours plus . fuck it . later i'm gonna study my poa . shit it .
i just realise my social studies text book was lost !! FUCKING SPIDER !! MAMA PUNDEH !!
can someone just lend social studies text book to me?? i'm so DAMN ...
i am SO gonna fail my exam =(( . GOD HELP . it'll be a total suicude for me if i fail all of my subjects , i better be off dead man . especially for my english , english is the root of your education man. fail english = retain / drop to other classes . both choice SUCKS . staying in school for 5 years is already a torture for me. you talk about 6 years?? HELL NO! let's pray , hopefully my CA marks will pull my SA marks. if not i'm gonna murder myself.. =X
O boy.. i'm so crazy.. can i just die?? cannot cannot...
tomorrow will be the 1st day of exam. FUCK. yet i'm so not well prepared. i will be dead man , DAMN DEAD. i can't do my poa , can't do my chemistry , can't do my SOCIAL STUDIES without a text book even , what esle can i do? fUcK !!
after exam i can only cry out BOOHOO!!! :(
murder suicide .
oh god , i'm whipped
she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying