T.R.A.E.H.Y.M 爱

THE BAITCH

break the rules.
follow your heart
& live your life.

The name's AMANDA.

I'm a simple kinda girl. Treat me nicely, & you"ll get nothing less than that.
I LOVE MY BEAR . Snatch him & I"ll throw a bitchfit & bite you.
I'm sometime's abit blur, responsive system is slightly retard .
Accuse me & I'll bitch till you don't dare to utter a word. Im also pretty much a hater.
I detest twits. I don't like stupid people who are stupid ( not as in IQ or EQ ).
I dislike people with werid & awkward social manners. I also don't like attention seekers.
I HATE most is people talking behind my back, that things which are not TRUE.
LASTLY, I LOVE MY BEAR VERY MUCH. XD


YI want your warm embrace, I miss you. Baby(:

我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .

I LOVE my bear, bleach, death note, alice 9, x-japan, BECK, chobits, friends, shopping, dolling up, laughing, screaming, gaming, candylicious, chilling, late night cozy chats, cuddling up with girlfriends, smelling my soft toys<3, music, eating, my dog, pierciing, napping, piink.x, neoprint.

Random things bout me??

I hate the rain.
But now raining makes me smile.
I don't drink fresh milk. puke!
But I love dairy products. (:
I'm not a very HEELS kinda girl.
But I have no idea why I have so many heels.
I don't like keeping quiet.
But I enjoy long quiet walks alone.
I hate the night.
But I'mma night kinda person.
I sucks at singing.
But I'm always singing to myself.
Contradicting?
yes, I'm contradiction itself. (;

I'm not a once bitten twice shy kinda girl. & that's BAD.
Overall, I'm dumb. naive. Sometimes too helpful :P
SERIOUS. LOL. Hmm, too straightforward. & always asking for trouble.
Self-indulgence in misery. Either I'm plain ordinary and plain dumb.
Or I'm just to complicated to comphrehend. (:

想要的 : Materialistic .

* PSP
* Digital Cam
* New handphone
* More Tees!
* Levis jeans
* Shoes
* Flipflops
* More shorts
* Shopping everyday!
* A storage of hidden tibits!
* Rid every single pimple
* Change my characther (:
* Be the one.

我最真的爱 : BeStIe!

Wenyi; Nuer @ swiithoney
Perlyn; Switheartx @ imyours-forever
Jolynn; Meimei @ im-your-girl
Shi min; Fatty min.x @ min-l0vehurt
XiaoSi @ palace
Yuting; Laogong @ in<3withyou
Kaijing @ ycworld
Fengheng @ he is a idiot

我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x

`August 2006 `September 2006 `October 2006 `November 2006 `December 2006 `January 2007 `February 2007 `March 2007 `April 2007 `May 2007 `June 2007

'Cause im from Venus

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

The wonders of what emotions can do to you.

When there is love, there is hate . When there is hate , there is love . The two emotions somehow seem to have a very perpetual relationship between one another .
Yet , this ' relationship ' seems to haunt every single soul out there in the universe .
You love one , you hate another , you hate another , yet you love one .
And you can't figure up whether to hate or to love .

It's really amazing what these two emotions can do to you . You either end up psychotic , or you end up fine . I really admire and love these two emotions because it has left me lost and hanging in the middle of no where for so long . You just don't seem to know when you have to love and when you have to hate .

It's as good as a people taking things for granted , and only coming to realize how important something actually is until it vanishes into thin air . Then , guilt and morose set in , which results in depression and then , the thought of committing suicide .

Am i right ? ?

It makes you really wonder what and where the heart really is .
Is it an organ?
Or is it a feeling?
Is it really inside you?
Or is it smack right outside where your skin is that you feel tinge of pains?

Sometimes you hate yourself for your foolish acts but yet you don't seem to really learn from it because you don't want to . I really hate myself for everything most of the time .

I know I've very bad attitude problems , thats why I'm trying to change now .
I used to show a lot of attitude to people around me last time . They used to tolerate also .
I also used to expect them to give in . Always complaining .... Saying stupid things ....
But now , I realised how childish I was ....

It just that sometimes when I'm pissed off .... I duno what so say
When I'm angry , the things I said , I didnt use my brain and think before I say
ending up offending the people around me .. hurting people's feelings .
I just dont really know how to tolerate things when I'm angry larrhx and
I dont spare a thought for other people when I'm pissed .
i've serious attitude problem sometimes =/
But I'll try to change my attitude problem .

so finally holidays are here and boredom caught up with me .
I still have my bridging and my dance practise . It's not a relaxing holiday after all .
I'm afraid of gaining weight man , i'm too heavy already ,
need to BURNNN fats .. !!

i seriously need a BIG and NERDY specs . my eyesight is getting poorer and poorer .
actually , i found one . but , i'm afraid mama won't buy for me . she don't like me to wear specs ..
and she don't even like me to wear contacts too , though i always wear .
I wonder if that everything is under $10 then that will be great . hahas .
but thats the impossible .

Sometimes , i just feel something is lacking in my life .
anyway , after writing down about how unsatisfied i am with my life, i'm feeling much much better. like.. maybe someone out there in the world will understand how i feel. i find it hard to express how i feel to my friend so yeah. it helps.
Fuck that , fuck that .
alright , enough of my crapping .
good-bye my BaOb3ii bloggy .


hubbiiey i love you

she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying