T.R.A.E.H.Y.M 爱

THE BAITCH

break the rules.
follow your heart
& live your life.

The name's AMANDA.

I'm a simple kinda girl. Treat me nicely, & you"ll get nothing less than that.
I LOVE MY BEAR . Snatch him & I"ll throw a bitchfit & bite you.
I'm sometime's abit blur, responsive system is slightly retard .
Accuse me & I'll bitch till you don't dare to utter a word. Im also pretty much a hater.
I detest twits. I don't like stupid people who are stupid ( not as in IQ or EQ ).
I dislike people with werid & awkward social manners. I also don't like attention seekers.
I HATE most is people talking behind my back, that things which are not TRUE.
LASTLY, I LOVE MY BEAR VERY MUCH. XD


YI want your warm embrace, I miss you. Baby(:

我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .

I LOVE my bear, bleach, death note, alice 9, x-japan, BECK, chobits, friends, shopping, dolling up, laughing, screaming, gaming, candylicious, chilling, late night cozy chats, cuddling up with girlfriends, smelling my soft toys<3, music, eating, my dog, pierciing, napping, piink.x, neoprint.

Random things bout me??

I hate the rain.
But now raining makes me smile.
I don't drink fresh milk. puke!
But I love dairy products. (:
I'm not a very HEELS kinda girl.
But I have no idea why I have so many heels.
I don't like keeping quiet.
But I enjoy long quiet walks alone.
I hate the night.
But I'mma night kinda person.
I sucks at singing.
But I'm always singing to myself.
Contradicting?
yes, I'm contradiction itself. (;

I'm not a once bitten twice shy kinda girl. & that's BAD.
Overall, I'm dumb. naive. Sometimes too helpful :P
SERIOUS. LOL. Hmm, too straightforward. & always asking for trouble.
Self-indulgence in misery. Either I'm plain ordinary and plain dumb.
Or I'm just to complicated to comphrehend. (:

想要的 : Materialistic .

* PSP
* Digital Cam
* New handphone
* More Tees!
* Levis jeans
* Shoes
* Flipflops
* More shorts
* Shopping everyday!
* A storage of hidden tibits!
* Rid every single pimple
* Change my characther (:
* Be the one.

我最真的爱 : BeStIe!

Wenyi; Nuer @ swiithoney
Perlyn; Switheartx @ imyours-forever
Jolynn; Meimei @ im-your-girl
Shi min; Fatty min.x @ min-l0vehurt
XiaoSi @ palace
Yuting; Laogong @ in<3withyou
Kaijing @ ycworld
Fengheng @ he is a idiot

我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x

`August 2006 `September 2006 `October 2006 `November 2006 `December 2006 `January 2007 `February 2007 `March 2007 `April 2007 `May 2007 `June 2007

'Cause im from Venus

Sunday, November 05, 2006

okay , i have reach home at around 6+pm .
baby and i have a small tiff yesterday .
and sometimes , whenever we have a tiff ,
i feel so not like to talk to him or even sloving the problems .
i need more time to think about it .
and i know if i talk to him after we just had a tiff ,
i'm sure i gonna throw my displeasure at him .
and it's so exasperation of having a tiff with him .
one moment we were ok ,
the next moment we were falling-out .
it pains my heart whenever we did that .
i shall stop talking about now ...

SATURDAY [ o411o6 ]
after the tiff with baby , i went to sengkang and stayed overnight .
alright , my cousins was so adorable and cute despite her stupid ness .
[ hahas , refering to my cousin biao mei only ]
[no offence yeah ?!? hahas . ]
reach her house was at about 5+ going to 6pm le barrhx .
then went to use her house com to msn baby to let him know that i had reach sengkang ler .
after that , i cam whore with my biao mei . hahas .
my biao jie was in the tolit bathing .

-habit number 1 of my cousin ..
-she takes a very long time to bathe .
about 1hour plus to have her bathe done .

after that , my yi jiong [ uncle ] and yi ma [ aunt ] went compass point to get our dinner for us .
live in their house damn nice .
i love how their house was decorated .
i love the spacious of their house .
i just love everything .
they bought me mee pok .
damn delicious but very expensive .
guess how much it was ....
it cost $4 nia . si bei ex lor .
then we were all watching tv while dining in the living room .





[ fuck la . i really no mood to post liao . my family are quarreling . i fucking hate my family . i want to have a peaceful family . i just came home and this is the piece of shit they gave me . i don't even feel family warmth for a very very long time as i can remember . i fucking wish to have a family of my own right now . my mom is so fed-up of my granny even i'm too . my granny fucking want to find trouble for my mom and i fucking hate it . why does she have to do that . and now my mom is fucking stress up . she keep complaining wanting to move away . i don't want that to happen . i fucking don't want it to happen . i'm not angry or what , i'm just feeling damn upset now . streams of tears kept rolling down my face whenever they quarrel not because i'm in it . because we are one family , and my family is falling apart . i can hear quarreling everyday in my house . even hiding in my bro's room . i just fucking want to die right right away . if i can die to slove the problems , i am fucking willing to die . my granny is so unreasonable . i know she's sick , but does that mean a sick person can torture my mom over the years . i understand my mom is living in hell all this years . my granny do not allow my mom to visit her own parents . do you know is so upset for her . granny even scold my mom's mom ccb and all sorts of vulgar you can think of .

WTF I'M SO DAMN PISSED . I SHOUTED AT MY GRANNY JUST NOW CAUSE SHE BITTED MY MOM . MY GRANNY WANTED TO CHOKE TO DEATH WITH HER MEDICINE AND MY MOM OF CAUSE STOP HER .

i'm fucking stressed up . nobody can actually know what i'm feeling right at this moment nobody . no words can describe my unhappiness my dissatisfaction , my everything . i smile everyday cause i don't want to be upset . I FUCKING WANT TO DIE AWAY FROM THIS WORLD . I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY . I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING . NO VULGAR CAN EXPRESS MY HATRED . NOTHING CAN EXPRESS HOW I FEEL . . ]

i shall blog next time .
i love dear...

she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying