T.R.A.E.H.Y.M 爱

THE BAITCH

break the rules.
follow your heart
& live your life.

The name's AMANDA.

I'm a simple kinda girl. Treat me nicely, & you"ll get nothing less than that.
I LOVE MY BEAR . Snatch him & I"ll throw a bitchfit & bite you.
I'm sometime's abit blur, responsive system is slightly retard .
Accuse me & I'll bitch till you don't dare to utter a word. Im also pretty much a hater.
I detest twits. I don't like stupid people who are stupid ( not as in IQ or EQ ).
I dislike people with werid & awkward social manners. I also don't like attention seekers.
I HATE most is people talking behind my back, that things which are not TRUE.
LASTLY, I LOVE MY BEAR VERY MUCH. XD


YI want your warm embrace, I miss you. Baby(:

我的最爱 : I LOVE LIFE .

I LOVE my bear, bleach, death note, alice 9, x-japan, BECK, chobits, friends, shopping, dolling up, laughing, screaming, gaming, candylicious, chilling, late night cozy chats, cuddling up with girlfriends, smelling my soft toys<3, music, eating, my dog, pierciing, napping, piink.x, neoprint.

Random things bout me??

I hate the rain.
But now raining makes me smile.
I don't drink fresh milk. puke!
But I love dairy products. (:
I'm not a very HEELS kinda girl.
But I have no idea why I have so many heels.
I don't like keeping quiet.
But I enjoy long quiet walks alone.
I hate the night.
But I'mma night kinda person.
I sucks at singing.
But I'm always singing to myself.
Contradicting?
yes, I'm contradiction itself. (;

I'm not a once bitten twice shy kinda girl. & that's BAD.
Overall, I'm dumb. naive. Sometimes too helpful :P
SERIOUS. LOL. Hmm, too straightforward. & always asking for trouble.
Self-indulgence in misery. Either I'm plain ordinary and plain dumb.
Or I'm just to complicated to comphrehend. (:

想要的 : Materialistic .

* PSP
* Digital Cam
* New handphone
* More Tees!
* Levis jeans
* Shoes
* Flipflops
* More shorts
* Shopping everyday!
* A storage of hidden tibits!
* Rid every single pimple
* Change my characther (:
* Be the one.

我最真的爱 : BeStIe!

Wenyi; Nuer @ swiithoney
Perlyn; Switheartx @ imyours-forever
Jolynn; Meimei @ im-your-girl
Shi min; Fatty min.x @ min-l0vehurt
XiaoSi @ palace
Yuting; Laogong @ in<3withyou
Kaijing @ ycworld
Fengheng @ he is a idiot

我最真的回忆 : memoriie.x

`August 2006 `September 2006 `October 2006 `November 2006 `December 2006 `January 2007 `February 2007 `March 2007 `April 2007 `May 2007 `June 2007

'Cause im from Venus

Monday, November 27, 2006

T.R.A.E.H Y.M

maybe things have change ,
people around me seems to be different and ever changing .
i wish somehow my washing machine could brainwash me . =]

i started looking at things from a different perspective.
maybe in that way life would be better.
somehow i feel.see.hear.belive many more things than others don't.

it just started all over again replaying in my mind,
i tried my best to fight back the tears
but it always win .
it just kept coming back ,
but it always win .
REPLAY > ?

i tried keeping myself busy ,
but it doesnt seem to help
me of forgeting you .

my life have been a mask ,
a facade mask that i put on each day to hide myself ,
hide my feelings .

i have lost apart of me .
it's empty and hollow inside .

i have been craving for something that seem so far away
i just wanna lie on the grass
and forget all reality.everything
or just need someone to murder me
somehow my bubble has burst.
and all im left with is tears.
maybe its just not meant to be.
no matter how hard we've tried.
i don't feel like hanging on to our relationship anymore .
no point drowning in sorrows .

listen to me will you ?
call me will you ?
don't neglact me will you ?
tell me about your life will you ?
don't throw me alone will you ?

humans are strange sometimes.
our hearts never did listen.
and we dont listen to our hearts.
and we ended up hurting each other .

somehow i wish we could be like before.
maybe we worry abit too much
if we did continue how would it be?
maybe the cut would be deeper.
drowning in tears is never right.
will u smile if we see each other?
but
if we were not to be together ?
what would it be like ?
will we still talk to each other ?
will we still care for each other ?
or will we just remain slient and
move on with our own life .

i wanna forget about the world ,
and all the sorrows it brings to me .
i wanna be left alone to scream like nobody business .
i craves nothing but your care and concern and everything .
i dislike being neglact .

sometimes ,
i wonder ,
am i holding something that have no outcome ?

i will , i could ,
to tear a hole , in myself
to understand more about me .

my sky is turning grey ,
the sun is dosen't seems to shine .
my rainbow in my heart seems to be fading away .
there seems to be no tomorrw .

apart of my heart seems shattered.like glass.
bits here and there.
some lost , some can never be found .

i'm sorry for the cause for it all .
hope you are happier this way .

wish me luck for my performance tomorrow ,
i will do my best .

she tried, she cried, & she gave up.
leave me alone to scream,
leave me alone to die.
i'm crying apart of me is dying